At risk of sounding like I'm complaining, these days school literally never ends. The deadlines press in hard and fast; assignment, project, midterm, paper, finals. And honestly I've had days (or maybe more) when the term "senior" applies in terms of total and utter exhaustion as well as my status in college. And since the assignments never end, the question continually arises: do I take a break to spend time with family? with friends? to take a walk in the beautiful fall weather? to blog? to read? to eat? breathe? You can see the decisions are endless!
However, there is definitely a positive side to feeling overwhelmed-it has shown me over and again how much I need Jesus' wisdom, strength, and sustaining power. As my own sin is revealed through this straining process (read: I've complained every now and then!), I am reminded forcefully of how that sin would completely separate me from a good and holy God were it not for the fact that Jesus is my
rescuer. When I've felt completely exhausted physically and mentally it has driven me to the word for strength to go on, and there I've seen His
majesty (Isaiah 45),
compassion (Matthew 20:34),
power (Mark 4:41),
meekness (Matthew 11:28)
wisdom (Colossians 2:3),
love (John 15:13),
forgiveness (Luke 23:34),
holy zeal (Matthew 21:13),
victory over death (Luke 24:6)
and more...oh much, much more. The more I learn about Him, the more I know I have to learn-and it's been amazing to realize more and more that He
wants me to know Him more-that when I seek Him, He draws near to me and teaches me (James 4:8a). I risk rambling, but I sum up my vent about school with a couple quotes that have reminded me how precious it is to know Jesus.
"May my cry be always, Only Jesus! only Jesus!
In Him is freedom from condemnation,
Fullness in His righteousness,
Eternal vitality in His given life,
Indissoluble union in fellowship with Him;
In Him I have all that I can hold;
Enlarge me to take in more."
~ Valley of Vision,
The Life Look, pg. 97
"I dare not say but my Lord Jesus hath fully recompensed my sadness with His joys my losses with His own presence. I find it a sweet and rich thing to exchange my sorrows with Christ's joys, my afflictions with that sweet peace I have with Himself."
~Samuel Rutherford,
The Loveliness of Christ, pg. 48
"More than that, I count all things to be loss in view of the surpassing value of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whom I have suffered the loss of all things, and count them but rubbish so that I may gain Christ, and may be found in Him, not having a righteousness of my own derived from the Law, but that which is through faith in Christ, the righteousness which comes from God on the basis of faith, that I may know Him and the power of His resurrection and the fellowship of His sufferings..."
~Philippians 3:8-10
~Lissie
Good thoughts Lissie! And very encouraging as I'm going through some of the same things with school (not as crazy as you though ;-) ) Setting priorities is so much harder when most of your time is taken up with school!
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ReplyDeleteThis post is perfect...reminders I needed desperately of how Christ is worthy of the investment of our time, no matter how pressed (or depressed) we feel. Thanks for taking the time to share. I love you, and I'm always praying for you!
Forever your Mumsie
Dearest Lissie - I thank God for you and your love of Christ! You are in the school of training for 'mommyhood' with the job that never ends, so it's great to see that you're learning to lean on Him and find joy in the work now. That will help later.
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That was beautiful, Alison! I can so relate to it (except for the senior college work).
ReplyDeleteMatthew 5:8 is may favorite verse, especially as my name (Kaleigh) means "pure heart". God bless you!
Lissie, I feel your pain.....and some people say the senior year is a party...I'll be praying for you! Thanks for being a friend who can relate to the crazy-wonderfulness of having a full college load and a full family load at the same time. It always encourages me to hear from you!
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